Tuesday, January 6, 2015

The Weight Loss Battle Continues

So today is the second day of the cleanse.  I will admit that I ate chicken salad last night.  I am going to have to change this detox thing up.  My husband is doing this with me, and by 6:00 last night we were both completely lethargic, and faint.  We had veggies and chicken salad last night, and we decided that we will add some other things back into our diet.  This whole detox concept is great, but in reality, anything that makes it impossible to think clearly, and function properly needs to be rethought! 

I got on the scale this morning, and despite the chicken salad and veggies, I was down 1.5 pounds!  Keith got on the scale and was down 5 pounds.  Yeap, FIVE POUNDS!  Serious craziness!  I even exercised yesterday and burned up over 500 calories, and he still managed to lose almost three times more weight than I did.  Dieting with a man is often difficult because they lose so much faster than women do.  Fair or not, I am not going to let it discourage me, but rather help to motivate me. 

Monday, January 5, 2015

I'm BACK!!!!!!

Okay, I know it's been a LONG time, but I've decided that I am going to start blogging again.  My blog will focus on mothering, but the biggest focus will be my path to health, fitness and wellness. 

I've been walking the path to wellness and fitness for a LONG time!  I've been doing really great with the exercise side of things, and I was doing very well with the healthy eating side of things for the first half of last year, and then things went completely downhill.  I knew it was bad when I had to get out my fat pants, they weren't my super fat pants, just my regular fat pants because everything was getting tight and uncomfortable.  I dreaded having to do that, but there are places where is just isn't appropriate to wear elastic waist yoga pants and a baggy sweatshirt.  There were things in my closet that I didn't even bother trying on, and I avoided the scale like it was the plague!  I was lying to myself.  I knew I had gained a few pounds, but if I avoided the scale, and skipped over all the sized medium shirts in my closet, I could convince myself that it wasn't that bad!  It couldn't possibly be more than ten, maybe 15 pounds max.

I got on the scale this morning, and to my surprise I had put on 25 pounds!!!!  Yes, that is correct ladies and gentleman, I have gained the equivalent of a two year old! 

I am so tired of this cycle of losing and gaining, and it is time to stop all of this insanity!  I can list dozens of excuses as to why my eating went down the toilet over the past 5 to 6 months.  We moved, we were renovating, life was busy, blah, blah, blah!  These are nothing but excuses, and if things are going to change, I need to stop making excuses, take accountability for my choices, and get real with what I have let happen to me, and what I am going to so that I look and feel better.  I want to be comfortable in my own skin!

Here is what I have learned, if I am afraid to step on the scale, that is bad news!  There is only reason to be afraid of the scale, and that is because being ignorant to that number is sometimes easier than facing the reality that something has to change!  My commitment for 2015 is to get on that scale every single Monday morning.  I will not let the number define who I am as a person, but I will let it motivate me to be a little better, to eat a little cleaner, to workout a little harder.  It is much easier to face the music after a bad week and realize that you need to get back on track, than waiting 4 or 5 months to realize you have done some serious damage, and live with regret. 

I have had people tell me that I am beautiful just the way I am.  I believe there is beauty in everyone, big or small, but for me, I know that in order to feel my best that I need to look better than I do now.  I need to embrace the body that I have, and I need to work hard to take care of that body so that it serves me well. 

Today is the first day to a new me!  To get things started I am doing a cleanse, a cleanse which I am fairly confident that I am going to have to modify.  This is called the master cleanse.  You drink a solution of water, fresh lemon juice, Grade B organic maple syrup, and cayenne pepper six to 12 times a day.  You do a salt water flush in the morning, and you take laxative tablets at night, and that's it!  Yep, no real solid food, nothing other than water, lemon juice, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper!  Doesn't that sound wonderful?  ;-)  We will see how it goes!  You are supposed to follow this for 10 days, but let's be realistic, I just don't see that happening.  I think that I am going to have to add in some fresh fruits and vegetables, and possibly even some very lean protein in order to survive the full 10 days. 

I am excited, I am motivated, I am ready for change, and I am ready to be the best me I can be! 

Monday, October 31, 2011

On My Way To Hotness

Well, you remember that brand new start I talked about at the end of August? It has taken me a little longer to make some permanent commitments to wellness in my life. One week ago I set new goals. I got on the scale, something I haven't done in AGES! I didn't want to get on the scale. I also looked in the mirror and came to realization that pants were tight because of what I had been putting into my body, not because they shrunk in the dryer. I needed a serious reality check. When I've started diets in the past several months I have been in a fog. I didn't really want to know what the scale said. I just wanted to lose wait quickly so I could pretend that I was never really as heavy as I was. I was living in la la land. How on earth could I expect to lose weight if I didn't even know where I was starting? I had to come to the realization that I needed to be accountable for the things that I ate. I didn't want to plan meals, didn't want to track food, didn't want to know where I was starting! How foolish!

I passed the number on the scale that I swore I would never pass and it shocked me into the reality that if I didn't do something about it now, that number was going to continue increasing and I didn't want that to happen. Right then and there I made a decision to do something about it. I had seen some wonderful before and after pictures of a gal on a board that I am a member of. She had lost 92 pounds and looked AMAZING! That is what brought me to the scale to finally face reality. It also motivated me to do something about my lumpiness. She was excited about the transformation she had made and was willing to share her experience and I drank it all up!

I am now a member of something called myfitnesspal.com. What a FANTASTIC site! It is completely free and allows you to track all of your meals and your exercise. It is a way of being accountable to myself for what I am putting into my body. I track every single day and I have my husband tracking too! Honestly, when you have to be accountable for what you are eating, it makes a big difference. I won't put an M&M in my mouth because I don't want to have to see it on my food log. I weighed in last night and in one week, I have lost 9 pounds! I have a long way to go but I am feeling fantastic and more motivated than ever before.

Here is to one fantastic week! I can and will do this. I have finally faced the music and am taking accountability and I couldn't be more content.

Monday, August 29, 2011

It's A New Day, A New Start, A New Chapter

Well, it's official! I truly am a middle aged mom. A frumpy, fat, discontent, middle aged mom! Things are about to change!

I keep thinking that I'm 40 but I'm really only 39. I guess that is something to celebrate. I'm still in my 30's! At least for the next three and a half months!

Today is the first day of school around here. Maddie is off at the high school. She's a junior with a licence and is therefore driving herself! CRAZINESS I tell you! Amanda is almost 12 and started 6th grade at a brand new school - the intermediate school! Megan, my baby, started kindergarten! I have no more babies at home and it is just a little sad! Not only am I getting old but so are my parents! My mother is about to turn 60 and my father will turn 65 in the middle of September. Crazy I tell you! I clearly remember when they were my age!

So here is the deal. As this is the start of a new chapter in my life it is going to be a new beginning for me. I will no longer be the fat, frumpy mom. I am going to do something about this! I am going to log what I eat on a daily basis. I will set goals and accomplish them!

Today is the beginning of a brand new day and I am excited about it!

Monday, January 17, 2011

3.5 To Go!

Well....I made it through 1 full week of Weight Watchers and got on the scale to weigh in this morning. Drum roll please! I lost a total of 6.5 pounds my first week. Definitely not too shabby! I am really excited with my results althought, I must admit, it feels like I have been dieting forever and that I should be so much closer to my goal. I have decided to break this big goal down into 10 pound increments. It is so much easier to handle losing 10 pounds at a time. I will celebrate with every 10 pound loss I have. Only 3.5 more pounds to go until my first celebration!

On another happy note, I haven't gotten up in the middle of the night to eat since my last post! That's six nights in a row without any midnight snacking! Haleluia! It looks like I will finally be able to put that awful habit behind me once and for all.

Here is what I have learned this week. First of all, I learned that it is okay to be hungry. I have also learned that I can go to the movies, not get any popcorn and be okay with it. Keith and I went to the movie theater this week and though I felt a little sorry for myself when I bypassed the treats at the concession stand, I was very proud of myself and relieved as we left the theater that I didn't have a popcorn stomach ache. It has been a good week!

Friday, January 14, 2011

Old Habits Are Slowly Dying!

So, I've been following the Weight Watchers points program since Monday and is going fantastically well!

I must however confess that I have horrible habit of eating in the middle of the middle of the night. This is a problem that doesn't work very well with the whole "healthier lifestyle" phylosophy. I seem to suffer from sleep problems and am usually up at least twice during the night. The biggest problem is that when I awake I usually find myself STARVING which leads me towards the kitchen where I consume foods I woudln't normally eat.....handfuls of pepperoni, spoofuls of icing or peanut butter....I know...it's a terrible habit! Even when I was on Weight Watchers before, this is a habit that I couldn't seem to break myself of but I did tend to make healthier choices in the middle of the night....things like bananas and 100 calorie packs. This time around (which I am deteremined will be my last time around)I have been determined to rid myself of this habit once and for all!

Monday night I found myself in the kitchen with the fridge open and I ate 10 pieces of pepperoni. Not too horribly bad. I even counted it towards my Weight Watchers points for the day.

I am happy to report that since Monday night, I have not ventured into the fridge in the middle of the night! I feel like this is a HUGE victory for me. I am still fiding myself awake and starving in the middle of the night but I have made a conscious decision not to venture into the kitchen otherwise known as the twilight zone where weird things that aren't suppose to happen occur!

I am doing a happy dance this morning! I realize that I have only succeeded for three nights but it is three consecutive nights! I am on the right path and it feels great!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Moving Forward

Well....it has been forever since I posted anything....not that it really matters because I don't think that anyone really reads this blog. Regardless, I am still going to continue blogging for posterity sake.

My husband and I started Weight Watchers online on Monday. Let me first state that he lost 5 pounds before we even started any kind of diet and I have no idea how because evertime I turned around he was eating lemon meringue pie! Maybe there's some kind of lemon meringue pie diet out there that I haven't been privy to. So, he lost 5 pounds without even doing anything before we even started our "new healthy lifestyle". Today is our third day and he got on the scale this morning and is already down about 7 pounds! How fair is that? Honestly, I probably haven't even dropped a pound yet and he is down a total of 12. If only I could have his metabolism for just one week! Oh the things that I could accomplish!

On a positive note, I am feeling better. I haven't felt too terribly depried yet which is a good thing. I honestly feel that this is a lifestyle that I can live with for an endless amount of time. While I am on this journey, I need to try to find out why it is that I keep falling off the wagon and gaining back all of my weight after losing it. Hopefully I can uncover that mystery and end the cycle once and for all because I am tired of feeling frumpy and tired and out of breath.

Here's a to a great day!