In A Funk.....

So, I'm totally in a funk right now. I was doing so well last week and then.....the weekend hit and I haven't been able to recover. I also decided that I would make homemade bread for the first time yesterday. Needless to say, all I've eaten since 8 last night is bread and raspberry jam.

I find myself asking if I will ever be slim and gorgeous again. Why is eating healthy such a huge challenge for me?

Tomorrow will be a better day. It has to be!

It's a Beautiful Day In My Neighborhood!

The sun is shining, I went walking this morning and I did fabulously well with my eating yesterday so there is reason to celebrate! We actually had a busy day with things to do and places to be and we ended up eating out for dinner. As we drove down Main Street, my mouth watered as I thought about french fries, deep fried chimichangas and ice cream! As I thought about what we would grab for dinner I reflected on my goals and decided that fried, fatty, calorie rich food didn't sound all that appetizing after all. We decided to go to Subway and I am so proud of my myself for not getting my all time favorite, The Spicy Italian, loaded with pepperoni and salami marbled with fat. Instead, I ate a delicious veggies sub with a modest amount of cheese and loaded with veggies and avocado. I satisfied my hunger with a wonderful meal and felt a sense of satisfcation for taking the time to listen to my body and making a conscious healthy choice.

Here's to another great day!

Making A Fresh Start

So....back in the summer, I decided that I would blog on a regular basis. I failed MISERABLY! I basically threw all of my goals out the window and enjoyed the summer. Well...now that the kids are back in school and I've had them write down their goals for the school year, I figured that I had better set the example or rather follow their example and do the same.

Here I sit on the first day of September, a little fatter, feeling a little lackadaisical and coming to the harsh realization that it is TIME for a change! Not just a temporary change but a total change in both body and spirit. It seems a little overwhelming but as a wise individual once said, "the only way to eat an elephant is one piece at a time". That is exactly what I am going to do.

I have been getting up Monday - Friday at 5:30 to go walking with a friend. We walk 3.3 miles and part our route includes two very steep hills. These hills are killers but it has been amazing to see the change in my endurance as we have climbed these hills day after day! Do I like doing it? Absolutely not! However, the sense of accomplishment that I feel as we reach the top of the last hill is really quite amazing. Just as I have conquered these hills and continue to do so day after day, I too will conquer other challenges in my life.

My 39th birthday is approaching and I plan to be better at 39 than I have been at 38. I am definitely overweight. Actually, I weigh more right now that I did when I was nine months pregnant with my baby girl who is now 4! I can be better, I must be better and I will be better! My first goal is to lose 10 pounds. I need to lose much more but I am going to tackle this problem 10 pounds at a time. I will celebrate as I achieve each goal and make changes in my life that will help me maintain a healthy weight.

My goal for today is to log everything I put into my mouth and to eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner! I will also have healthy snacks if I am hungry. I can and will do this! =)

Onward & Upward!!!

You know, I've just decided that weekends suck for dieting. I seem to do really well during the week and when Friday night rolls around, I am ready for a "free" meal. Unfortunately, that "free" meal seems to last from Friday at about 7:00 till late Sunday evening. I really need to refocus and figure out how I can be just as motivated on the weekends as I am during the week. I seem to undo all the good I've done and gain back everything that I've lost during the weekend. I suppose that the positive thing is that I am not really gaining weight but I'm definitely not losing either. SOMETHING most be done! I think that I will "plan" for one free meal a week and I honestly think I would do best if that free meal was either mid week or Saturday night. I really think that I could maintain good eating standards on Sundays. It's Saturday that seems to be the hardest for me and after eating crappy food Friday night and then all day Saturday, by the time Sunday rolls around my thoughts are usually "screw it, I'll start fresh on Monday".
So, here is my new goal! The start of my week will be Sunday morning, my "free" meal will be Saturday evening provided that I have stayed on track all week. I think that will help! All I need to do is make eating out off limits until Saturday night.

I've been doing great on the exercise front. I walk just over 2 miles every day and I feel a little less winded than I used to. I am going to start adding a mile over the next two weeks.

Oh...and on a completely different note, I must tell you that I've just started selling Scentsy! If you are interested, let me know.

The Journey Continues!

This is going to be quick because I have to leave the house for swimming lessons in 40 minutes and I haven't showered yet!

This has been a great week! I am down 4 pounds and I couldn't be happier!

I'll update more on my strengths and struggles his week later today.

Journey To A New Me!!!

Hooray! I'm super excited today! After doing some serious reflecting yesterday, I feel rejuvinated and am ready to face this up-hill battle..err I mean journey head on! I had a fantastic eating day yesterday! I ate perfectly and I didn't feel deprived one bit. I even had half a pan of brownies sitting on the counter all day and I didn't even feel tempted to have a taste. I can't even begin to tell you how victorious I feel for having had such a great day! There has to be something to taking this whole thing one day at a time that is empowering.

Here's to another great eating day!

Can I Just Start Over???

I honestly don't get it....how you can be super motivated one day and then totally lacking another?

Towards the end of last week, I didn't care one ounce whether or not I was fat. I tried to make healthy choices, when I made poor choices, I watched portion control and I walked almost every morning. When the weekend finally arrived, all I could think about was pizza and ice cream.

So here I sit, having eaten too much over the weekend, afraid to get on the scale and face the music and running out of fat clothes. This whole battle of the bulge is exactly that....a battle and it's one that has me feeling defeated.

Here is what I am going to do. I am going to take it one day at a time....one little obstacle at a time. On days when I am feeling super motivated, I'll be thankful and run with it. On days when I fall off the wagon and feel like eating the wagon, I will re-evaluate and find positive things to be thankful for, like elastic waisted pants. ;-) Honestly, on days when I feel defeated, I will find something good to focus on and move past the negative.

Here's hoping I have a better week. I have a long way to go on this journey and it's a journey that will continue for the rest of my life. Maybe just looking at it as a journey instead of a battle will help me do better.