So today is the second day of the cleanse. I will admit that I ate chicken salad last night. I am going to have to change this detox thing up. My husband is doing this with me, and by 6:00 last night we were both completely lethargic, and faint. We had veggies and chicken salad last night, and we decided that we will add some other things back into our diet. This whole detox concept is great, but in reality, anything that makes it impossible to think clearly, and function properly needs to be rethought!
I got on the scale this morning, and despite the chicken salad and veggies, I was down 1.5 pounds! Keith got on the scale and was down 5 pounds. Yeap, FIVE POUNDS! Serious craziness! I even exercised yesterday and burned up over 500 calories, and he still managed to lose almost three times more weight than I did. Dieting with a man is often difficult because they lose so much faster than women do. Fair or not, I am not going to let it discourage me, but rather help to motivate me.
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
Monday, January 5, 2015
I'm BACK!!!!!!
Okay, I know it's been a LONG time, but I've decided that I am going to start blogging again. My blog will focus on mothering, but the biggest focus will be my path to health, fitness and wellness.
I've been walking the path to wellness and fitness for a LONG time! I've been doing really great with the exercise side of things, and I was doing very well with the healthy eating side of things for the first half of last year, and then things went completely downhill. I knew it was bad when I had to get out my fat pants, they weren't my super fat pants, just my regular fat pants because everything was getting tight and uncomfortable. I dreaded having to do that, but there are places where is just isn't appropriate to wear elastic waist yoga pants and a baggy sweatshirt. There were things in my closet that I didn't even bother trying on, and I avoided the scale like it was the plague! I was lying to myself. I knew I had gained a few pounds, but if I avoided the scale, and skipped over all the sized medium shirts in my closet, I could convince myself that it wasn't that bad! It couldn't possibly be more than ten, maybe 15 pounds max.
I got on the scale this morning, and to my surprise I had put on 25 pounds!!!! Yes, that is correct ladies and gentleman, I have gained the equivalent of a two year old!
I am so tired of this cycle of losing and gaining, and it is time to stop all of this insanity! I can list dozens of excuses as to why my eating went down the toilet over the past 5 to 6 months. We moved, we were renovating, life was busy, blah, blah, blah! These are nothing but excuses, and if things are going to change, I need to stop making excuses, take accountability for my choices, and get real with what I have let happen to me, and what I am going to so that I look and feel better. I want to be comfortable in my own skin!
Here is what I have learned, if I am afraid to step on the scale, that is bad news! There is only reason to be afraid of the scale, and that is because being ignorant to that number is sometimes easier than facing the reality that something has to change! My commitment for 2015 is to get on that scale every single Monday morning. I will not let the number define who I am as a person, but I will let it motivate me to be a little better, to eat a little cleaner, to workout a little harder. It is much easier to face the music after a bad week and realize that you need to get back on track, than waiting 4 or 5 months to realize you have done some serious damage, and live with regret.
I have had people tell me that I am beautiful just the way I am. I believe there is beauty in everyone, big or small, but for me, I know that in order to feel my best that I need to look better than I do now. I need to embrace the body that I have, and I need to work hard to take care of that body so that it serves me well.
Today is the first day to a new me! To get things started I am doing a cleanse, a cleanse which I am fairly confident that I am going to have to modify. This is called the master cleanse. You drink a solution of water, fresh lemon juice, Grade B organic maple syrup, and cayenne pepper six to 12 times a day. You do a salt water flush in the morning, and you take laxative tablets at night, and that's it! Yep, no real solid food, nothing other than water, lemon juice, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper! Doesn't that sound wonderful? ;-) We will see how it goes! You are supposed to follow this for 10 days, but let's be realistic, I just don't see that happening. I think that I am going to have to add in some fresh fruits and vegetables, and possibly even some very lean protein in order to survive the full 10 days.
I am excited, I am motivated, I am ready for change, and I am ready to be the best me I can be!
I've been walking the path to wellness and fitness for a LONG time! I've been doing really great with the exercise side of things, and I was doing very well with the healthy eating side of things for the first half of last year, and then things went completely downhill. I knew it was bad when I had to get out my fat pants, they weren't my super fat pants, just my regular fat pants because everything was getting tight and uncomfortable. I dreaded having to do that, but there are places where is just isn't appropriate to wear elastic waist yoga pants and a baggy sweatshirt. There were things in my closet that I didn't even bother trying on, and I avoided the scale like it was the plague! I was lying to myself. I knew I had gained a few pounds, but if I avoided the scale, and skipped over all the sized medium shirts in my closet, I could convince myself that it wasn't that bad! It couldn't possibly be more than ten, maybe 15 pounds max.
I got on the scale this morning, and to my surprise I had put on 25 pounds!!!! Yes, that is correct ladies and gentleman, I have gained the equivalent of a two year old!
I am so tired of this cycle of losing and gaining, and it is time to stop all of this insanity! I can list dozens of excuses as to why my eating went down the toilet over the past 5 to 6 months. We moved, we were renovating, life was busy, blah, blah, blah! These are nothing but excuses, and if things are going to change, I need to stop making excuses, take accountability for my choices, and get real with what I have let happen to me, and what I am going to so that I look and feel better. I want to be comfortable in my own skin!
Here is what I have learned, if I am afraid to step on the scale, that is bad news! There is only reason to be afraid of the scale, and that is because being ignorant to that number is sometimes easier than facing the reality that something has to change! My commitment for 2015 is to get on that scale every single Monday morning. I will not let the number define who I am as a person, but I will let it motivate me to be a little better, to eat a little cleaner, to workout a little harder. It is much easier to face the music after a bad week and realize that you need to get back on track, than waiting 4 or 5 months to realize you have done some serious damage, and live with regret.
I have had people tell me that I am beautiful just the way I am. I believe there is beauty in everyone, big or small, but for me, I know that in order to feel my best that I need to look better than I do now. I need to embrace the body that I have, and I need to work hard to take care of that body so that it serves me well.
Today is the first day to a new me! To get things started I am doing a cleanse, a cleanse which I am fairly confident that I am going to have to modify. This is called the master cleanse. You drink a solution of water, fresh lemon juice, Grade B organic maple syrup, and cayenne pepper six to 12 times a day. You do a salt water flush in the morning, and you take laxative tablets at night, and that's it! Yep, no real solid food, nothing other than water, lemon juice, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper! Doesn't that sound wonderful? ;-) We will see how it goes! You are supposed to follow this for 10 days, but let's be realistic, I just don't see that happening. I think that I am going to have to add in some fresh fruits and vegetables, and possibly even some very lean protein in order to survive the full 10 days.
I am excited, I am motivated, I am ready for change, and I am ready to be the best me I can be!
Monday, October 31, 2011
On My Way To Hotness
Well, you remember that brand new start I talked about at the end of August? It has taken me a little longer to make some permanent commitments to wellness in my life. One week ago I set new goals. I got on the scale, something I haven't done in AGES! I didn't want to get on the scale. I also looked in the mirror and came to realization that pants were tight because of what I had been putting into my body, not because they shrunk in the dryer. I needed a serious reality check. When I've started diets in the past several months I have been in a fog. I didn't really want to know what the scale said. I just wanted to lose wait quickly so I could pretend that I was never really as heavy as I was. I was living in la la land. How on earth could I expect to lose weight if I didn't even know where I was starting? I had to come to the realization that I needed to be accountable for the things that I ate. I didn't want to plan meals, didn't want to track food, didn't want to know where I was starting! How foolish!
I passed the number on the scale that I swore I would never pass and it shocked me into the reality that if I didn't do something about it now, that number was going to continue increasing and I didn't want that to happen. Right then and there I made a decision to do something about it. I had seen some wonderful before and after pictures of a gal on a board that I am a member of. She had lost 92 pounds and looked AMAZING! That is what brought me to the scale to finally face reality. It also motivated me to do something about my lumpiness. She was excited about the transformation she had made and was willing to share her experience and I drank it all up!
I am now a member of something called myfitnesspal.com. What a FANTASTIC site! It is completely free and allows you to track all of your meals and your exercise. It is a way of being accountable to myself for what I am putting into my body. I track every single day and I have my husband tracking too! Honestly, when you have to be accountable for what you are eating, it makes a big difference. I won't put an M&M in my mouth because I don't want to have to see it on my food log. I weighed in last night and in one week, I have lost 9 pounds! I have a long way to go but I am feeling fantastic and more motivated than ever before.
Here is to one fantastic week! I can and will do this. I have finally faced the music and am taking accountability and I couldn't be more content.
I passed the number on the scale that I swore I would never pass and it shocked me into the reality that if I didn't do something about it now, that number was going to continue increasing and I didn't want that to happen. Right then and there I made a decision to do something about it. I had seen some wonderful before and after pictures of a gal on a board that I am a member of. She had lost 92 pounds and looked AMAZING! That is what brought me to the scale to finally face reality. It also motivated me to do something about my lumpiness. She was excited about the transformation she had made and was willing to share her experience and I drank it all up!
I am now a member of something called myfitnesspal.com. What a FANTASTIC site! It is completely free and allows you to track all of your meals and your exercise. It is a way of being accountable to myself for what I am putting into my body. I track every single day and I have my husband tracking too! Honestly, when you have to be accountable for what you are eating, it makes a big difference. I won't put an M&M in my mouth because I don't want to have to see it on my food log. I weighed in last night and in one week, I have lost 9 pounds! I have a long way to go but I am feeling fantastic and more motivated than ever before.
Here is to one fantastic week! I can and will do this. I have finally faced the music and am taking accountability and I couldn't be more content.
Monday, August 29, 2011
It's A New Day, A New Start, A New Chapter
Well, it's official! I truly am a middle aged mom. A frumpy, fat, discontent, middle aged mom! Things are about to change!
I keep thinking that I'm 40 but I'm really only 39. I guess that is something to celebrate. I'm still in my 30's! At least for the next three and a half months!
Today is the first day of school around here. Maddie is off at the high school. She's a junior with a licence and is therefore driving herself! CRAZINESS I tell you! Amanda is almost 12 and started 6th grade at a brand new school - the intermediate school! Megan, my baby, started kindergarten! I have no more babies at home and it is just a little sad! Not only am I getting old but so are my parents! My mother is about to turn 60 and my father will turn 65 in the middle of September. Crazy I tell you! I clearly remember when they were my age!
So here is the deal. As this is the start of a new chapter in my life it is going to be a new beginning for me. I will no longer be the fat, frumpy mom. I am going to do something about this! I am going to log what I eat on a daily basis. I will set goals and accomplish them!
Today is the beginning of a brand new day and I am excited about it!
I keep thinking that I'm 40 but I'm really only 39. I guess that is something to celebrate. I'm still in my 30's! At least for the next three and a half months!
Today is the first day of school around here. Maddie is off at the high school. She's a junior with a licence and is therefore driving herself! CRAZINESS I tell you! Amanda is almost 12 and started 6th grade at a brand new school - the intermediate school! Megan, my baby, started kindergarten! I have no more babies at home and it is just a little sad! Not only am I getting old but so are my parents! My mother is about to turn 60 and my father will turn 65 in the middle of September. Crazy I tell you! I clearly remember when they were my age!
So here is the deal. As this is the start of a new chapter in my life it is going to be a new beginning for me. I will no longer be the fat, frumpy mom. I am going to do something about this! I am going to log what I eat on a daily basis. I will set goals and accomplish them!
Today is the beginning of a brand new day and I am excited about it!
Monday, January 17, 2011
3.5 To Go!
Well....I made it through 1 full week of Weight Watchers and got on the scale to weigh in this morning. Drum roll please! I lost a total of 6.5 pounds my first week. Definitely not too shabby! I am really excited with my results althought, I must admit, it feels like I have been dieting forever and that I should be so much closer to my goal. I have decided to break this big goal down into 10 pound increments. It is so much easier to handle losing 10 pounds at a time. I will celebrate with every 10 pound loss I have. Only 3.5 more pounds to go until my first celebration!
On another happy note, I haven't gotten up in the middle of the night to eat since my last post! That's six nights in a row without any midnight snacking! Haleluia! It looks like I will finally be able to put that awful habit behind me once and for all.
Here is what I have learned this week. First of all, I learned that it is okay to be hungry. I have also learned that I can go to the movies, not get any popcorn and be okay with it. Keith and I went to the movie theater this week and though I felt a little sorry for myself when I bypassed the treats at the concession stand, I was very proud of myself and relieved as we left the theater that I didn't have a popcorn stomach ache. It has been a good week!
On another happy note, I haven't gotten up in the middle of the night to eat since my last post! That's six nights in a row without any midnight snacking! Haleluia! It looks like I will finally be able to put that awful habit behind me once and for all.
Here is what I have learned this week. First of all, I learned that it is okay to be hungry. I have also learned that I can go to the movies, not get any popcorn and be okay with it. Keith and I went to the movie theater this week and though I felt a little sorry for myself when I bypassed the treats at the concession stand, I was very proud of myself and relieved as we left the theater that I didn't have a popcorn stomach ache. It has been a good week!
Friday, January 14, 2011
Old Habits Are Slowly Dying!
So, I've been following the Weight Watchers points program since Monday and is going fantastically well!
I must however confess that I have horrible habit of eating in the middle of the middle of the night. This is a problem that doesn't work very well with the whole "healthier lifestyle" phylosophy. I seem to suffer from sleep problems and am usually up at least twice during the night. The biggest problem is that when I awake I usually find myself STARVING which leads me towards the kitchen where I consume foods I woudln't normally eat.....handfuls of pepperoni, spoofuls of icing or peanut butter....I know...it's a terrible habit! Even when I was on Weight Watchers before, this is a habit that I couldn't seem to break myself of but I did tend to make healthier choices in the middle of the night....things like bananas and 100 calorie packs. This time around (which I am deteremined will be my last time around)I have been determined to rid myself of this habit once and for all!
Monday night I found myself in the kitchen with the fridge open and I ate 10 pieces of pepperoni. Not too horribly bad. I even counted it towards my Weight Watchers points for the day.
I am happy to report that since Monday night, I have not ventured into the fridge in the middle of the night! I feel like this is a HUGE victory for me. I am still fiding myself awake and starving in the middle of the night but I have made a conscious decision not to venture into the kitchen otherwise known as the twilight zone where weird things that aren't suppose to happen occur!
I am doing a happy dance this morning! I realize that I have only succeeded for three nights but it is three consecutive nights! I am on the right path and it feels great!
I must however confess that I have horrible habit of eating in the middle of the middle of the night. This is a problem that doesn't work very well with the whole "healthier lifestyle" phylosophy. I seem to suffer from sleep problems and am usually up at least twice during the night. The biggest problem is that when I awake I usually find myself STARVING which leads me towards the kitchen where I consume foods I woudln't normally eat.....handfuls of pepperoni, spoofuls of icing or peanut butter....I know...it's a terrible habit! Even when I was on Weight Watchers before, this is a habit that I couldn't seem to break myself of but I did tend to make healthier choices in the middle of the night....things like bananas and 100 calorie packs. This time around (which I am deteremined will be my last time around)I have been determined to rid myself of this habit once and for all!
Monday night I found myself in the kitchen with the fridge open and I ate 10 pieces of pepperoni. Not too horribly bad. I even counted it towards my Weight Watchers points for the day.
I am happy to report that since Monday night, I have not ventured into the fridge in the middle of the night! I feel like this is a HUGE victory for me. I am still fiding myself awake and starving in the middle of the night but I have made a conscious decision not to venture into the kitchen otherwise known as the twilight zone where weird things that aren't suppose to happen occur!
I am doing a happy dance this morning! I realize that I have only succeeded for three nights but it is three consecutive nights! I am on the right path and it feels great!
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Moving Forward
Well....it has been forever since I posted anything....not that it really matters because I don't think that anyone really reads this blog. Regardless, I am still going to continue blogging for posterity sake.
My husband and I started Weight Watchers online on Monday. Let me first state that he lost 5 pounds before we even started any kind of diet and I have no idea how because evertime I turned around he was eating lemon meringue pie! Maybe there's some kind of lemon meringue pie diet out there that I haven't been privy to. So, he lost 5 pounds without even doing anything before we even started our "new healthy lifestyle". Today is our third day and he got on the scale this morning and is already down about 7 pounds! How fair is that? Honestly, I probably haven't even dropped a pound yet and he is down a total of 12. If only I could have his metabolism for just one week! Oh the things that I could accomplish!
On a positive note, I am feeling better. I haven't felt too terribly depried yet which is a good thing. I honestly feel that this is a lifestyle that I can live with for an endless amount of time. While I am on this journey, I need to try to find out why it is that I keep falling off the wagon and gaining back all of my weight after losing it. Hopefully I can uncover that mystery and end the cycle once and for all because I am tired of feeling frumpy and tired and out of breath.
Here's a to a great day!
My husband and I started Weight Watchers online on Monday. Let me first state that he lost 5 pounds before we even started any kind of diet and I have no idea how because evertime I turned around he was eating lemon meringue pie! Maybe there's some kind of lemon meringue pie diet out there that I haven't been privy to. So, he lost 5 pounds without even doing anything before we even started our "new healthy lifestyle". Today is our third day and he got on the scale this morning and is already down about 7 pounds! How fair is that? Honestly, I probably haven't even dropped a pound yet and he is down a total of 12. If only I could have his metabolism for just one week! Oh the things that I could accomplish!
On a positive note, I am feeling better. I haven't felt too terribly depried yet which is a good thing. I honestly feel that this is a lifestyle that I can live with for an endless amount of time. While I am on this journey, I need to try to find out why it is that I keep falling off the wagon and gaining back all of my weight after losing it. Hopefully I can uncover that mystery and end the cycle once and for all because I am tired of feeling frumpy and tired and out of breath.
Here's a to a great day!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
In A Funk.....
So, I'm totally in a funk right now. I was doing so well last week and then.....the weekend hit and I haven't been able to recover. I also decided that I would make homemade bread for the first time yesterday. Needless to say, all I've eaten since 8 last night is bread and raspberry jam.
I find myself asking if I will ever be slim and gorgeous again. Why is eating healthy such a huge challenge for me?
Tomorrow will be a better day. It has to be!
I find myself asking if I will ever be slim and gorgeous again. Why is eating healthy such a huge challenge for me?
Tomorrow will be a better day. It has to be!
Thursday, September 2, 2010
It's a Beautiful Day In My Neighborhood!
The sun is shining, I went walking this morning and I did fabulously well with my eating yesterday so there is reason to celebrate! We actually had a busy day with things to do and places to be and we ended up eating out for dinner. As we drove down Main Street, my mouth watered as I thought about french fries, deep fried chimichangas and ice cream! As I thought about what we would grab for dinner I reflected on my goals and decided that fried, fatty, calorie rich food didn't sound all that appetizing after all. We decided to go to Subway and I am so proud of my myself for not getting my all time favorite, The Spicy Italian, loaded with pepperoni and salami marbled with fat. Instead, I ate a delicious veggies sub with a modest amount of cheese and loaded with veggies and avocado. I satisfied my hunger with a wonderful meal and felt a sense of satisfcation for taking the time to listen to my body and making a conscious healthy choice.
Here's to another great day!
Here's to another great day!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Making A Fresh Start
So....back in the summer, I decided that I would blog on a regular basis. I failed MISERABLY! I basically threw all of my goals out the window and enjoyed the summer. Well...now that the kids are back in school and I've had them write down their goals for the school year, I figured that I had better set the example or rather follow their example and do the same.
Here I sit on the first day of September, a little fatter, feeling a little lackadaisical and coming to the harsh realization that it is TIME for a change! Not just a temporary change but a total change in both body and spirit. It seems a little overwhelming but as a wise individual once said, "the only way to eat an elephant is one piece at a time". That is exactly what I am going to do.
I have been getting up Monday - Friday at 5:30 to go walking with a friend. We walk 3.3 miles and part our route includes two very steep hills. These hills are killers but it has been amazing to see the change in my endurance as we have climbed these hills day after day! Do I like doing it? Absolutely not! However, the sense of accomplishment that I feel as we reach the top of the last hill is really quite amazing. Just as I have conquered these hills and continue to do so day after day, I too will conquer other challenges in my life.
My 39th birthday is approaching and I plan to be better at 39 than I have been at 38. I am definitely overweight. Actually, I weigh more right now that I did when I was nine months pregnant with my baby girl who is now 4! I can be better, I must be better and I will be better! My first goal is to lose 10 pounds. I need to lose much more but I am going to tackle this problem 10 pounds at a time. I will celebrate as I achieve each goal and make changes in my life that will help me maintain a healthy weight.
My goal for today is to log everything I put into my mouth and to eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner! I will also have healthy snacks if I am hungry. I can and will do this! =)
Here I sit on the first day of September, a little fatter, feeling a little lackadaisical and coming to the harsh realization that it is TIME for a change! Not just a temporary change but a total change in both body and spirit. It seems a little overwhelming but as a wise individual once said, "the only way to eat an elephant is one piece at a time". That is exactly what I am going to do.
I have been getting up Monday - Friday at 5:30 to go walking with a friend. We walk 3.3 miles and part our route includes two very steep hills. These hills are killers but it has been amazing to see the change in my endurance as we have climbed these hills day after day! Do I like doing it? Absolutely not! However, the sense of accomplishment that I feel as we reach the top of the last hill is really quite amazing. Just as I have conquered these hills and continue to do so day after day, I too will conquer other challenges in my life.
My 39th birthday is approaching and I plan to be better at 39 than I have been at 38. I am definitely overweight. Actually, I weigh more right now that I did when I was nine months pregnant with my baby girl who is now 4! I can be better, I must be better and I will be better! My first goal is to lose 10 pounds. I need to lose much more but I am going to tackle this problem 10 pounds at a time. I will celebrate as I achieve each goal and make changes in my life that will help me maintain a healthy weight.
My goal for today is to log everything I put into my mouth and to eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner! I will also have healthy snacks if I am hungry. I can and will do this! =)
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Onward & Upward!!!
You know, I've just decided that weekends suck for dieting. I seem to do really well during the week and when Friday night rolls around, I am ready for a "free" meal. Unfortunately, that "free" meal seems to last from Friday at about 7:00 till late Sunday evening. I really need to refocus and figure out how I can be just as motivated on the weekends as I am during the week. I seem to undo all the good I've done and gain back everything that I've lost during the weekend. I suppose that the positive thing is that I am not really gaining weight but I'm definitely not losing either. SOMETHING most be done! I think that I will "plan" for one free meal a week and I honestly think I would do best if that free meal was either mid week or Saturday night. I really think that I could maintain good eating standards on Sundays. It's Saturday that seems to be the hardest for me and after eating crappy food Friday night and then all day Saturday, by the time Sunday rolls around my thoughts are usually "screw it, I'll start fresh on Monday".
So, here is my new goal! The start of my week will be Sunday morning, my "free" meal will be Saturday evening provided that I have stayed on track all week. I think that will help! All I need to do is make eating out off limits until Saturday night.
I've been doing great on the exercise front. I walk just over 2 miles every day and I feel a little less winded than I used to. I am going to start adding a mile over the next two weeks.
Oh...and on a completely different note, I must tell you that I've just started selling Scentsy! If you are interested, let me know.
So, here is my new goal! The start of my week will be Sunday morning, my "free" meal will be Saturday evening provided that I have stayed on track all week. I think that will help! All I need to do is make eating out off limits until Saturday night.
I've been doing great on the exercise front. I walk just over 2 miles every day and I feel a little less winded than I used to. I am going to start adding a mile over the next two weeks.
Oh...and on a completely different note, I must tell you that I've just started selling Scentsy! If you are interested, let me know.
Friday, June 18, 2010
The Journey Continues!
This is going to be quick because I have to leave the house for swimming lessons in 40 minutes and I haven't showered yet!
This has been a great week! I am down 4 pounds and I couldn't be happier!
I'll update more on my strengths and struggles his week later today.
This has been a great week! I am down 4 pounds and I couldn't be happier!
I'll update more on my strengths and struggles his week later today.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Journey To A New Me!!!
Hooray! I'm super excited today! After doing some serious reflecting yesterday, I feel rejuvinated and am ready to face this up-hill battle..err I mean journey head on! I had a fantastic eating day yesterday! I ate perfectly and I didn't feel deprived one bit. I even had half a pan of brownies sitting on the counter all day and I didn't even feel tempted to have a taste. I can't even begin to tell you how victorious I feel for having had such a great day! There has to be something to taking this whole thing one day at a time that is empowering.
Here's to another great eating day!
Here's to another great eating day!
Monday, June 14, 2010
Can I Just Start Over???
I honestly don't get it....how you can be super motivated one day and then totally lacking another?
Towards the end of last week, I didn't care one ounce whether or not I was fat. I tried to make healthy choices, when I made poor choices, I watched portion control and I walked almost every morning. When the weekend finally arrived, all I could think about was pizza and ice cream.
So here I sit, having eaten too much over the weekend, afraid to get on the scale and face the music and running out of fat clothes. This whole battle of the bulge is exactly that....a battle and it's one that has me feeling defeated.
Here is what I am going to do. I am going to take it one day at a time....one little obstacle at a time. On days when I am feeling super motivated, I'll be thankful and run with it. On days when I fall off the wagon and feel like eating the wagon, I will re-evaluate and find positive things to be thankful for, like elastic waisted pants. ;-) Honestly, on days when I feel defeated, I will find something good to focus on and move past the negative.
Here's hoping I have a better week. I have a long way to go on this journey and it's a journey that will continue for the rest of my life. Maybe just looking at it as a journey instead of a battle will help me do better.
Towards the end of last week, I didn't care one ounce whether or not I was fat. I tried to make healthy choices, when I made poor choices, I watched portion control and I walked almost every morning. When the weekend finally arrived, all I could think about was pizza and ice cream.
So here I sit, having eaten too much over the weekend, afraid to get on the scale and face the music and running out of fat clothes. This whole battle of the bulge is exactly that....a battle and it's one that has me feeling defeated.
Here is what I am going to do. I am going to take it one day at a time....one little obstacle at a time. On days when I am feeling super motivated, I'll be thankful and run with it. On days when I fall off the wagon and feel like eating the wagon, I will re-evaluate and find positive things to be thankful for, like elastic waisted pants. ;-) Honestly, on days when I feel defeated, I will find something good to focus on and move past the negative.
Here's hoping I have a better week. I have a long way to go on this journey and it's a journey that will continue for the rest of my life. Maybe just looking at it as a journey instead of a battle will help me do better.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Battle of the Bulge - Day 9
I have come to the conclusion that husbands and Burger King are EVIL! I did so well yesterday until dinner. I was prepared to have a lovely organic salad with a toasted low carb tortilla and some grilled chicken but nooooooo! My husband wanted to go to Burger King. It didn't even sound good to me but I went anyway. I decided on an A1 burger and I have to tell you....it soooo wasn't worth it! The A1 burger definitley isn't a whopper. No longer will I eat something full of crap and calories if it isn't absolutely delicious! On a positive note, I didn't get fries or ice cream....just the burger so that is a good thing.
I went on my walk this morning! I walked 2.1 miles at a really good pace! I feel geared up ready for a Burger King free day today!
Now...if anyone out there would like a teenager who knows how to stir the pot and creates all kinds of drama....let me know! I also have a whining 10 year old and an almost 4 year tattle tale looking for a home. Heaven help me! My kids are driving me completely nuts today. Heaven help them too because if truth be told, PMS has reared its ugly head and my patience has vanished.
I'm off to do a little deep breathing in between my pushup workout.
I went on my walk this morning! I walked 2.1 miles at a really good pace! I feel geared up ready for a Burger King free day today!
Now...if anyone out there would like a teenager who knows how to stir the pot and creates all kinds of drama....let me know! I also have a whining 10 year old and an almost 4 year tattle tale looking for a home. Heaven help me! My kids are driving me completely nuts today. Heaven help them too because if truth be told, PMS has reared its ugly head and my patience has vanished.
I'm off to do a little deep breathing in between my pushup workout.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Battle of the Bulge - Day 8
I am so happy to be starting day 8 in my quest to win the battle of the bulge! I still feel very motivated to conquer this little issue of weight once and for all and make a change in my life for the better.
I'm still feeling a little weak from the stomach flu last week so I am going to rest a little today. I'm thinking that a nap this afternoon sounds perfect!
Here is an update on the exercise front. I completed day one of the pushup challenge yesterday. I decided to start fresh seeing as I didn't complete week one last week. I have also decided that I am not going to take the easy way out. I will be doing full pushups, women's pushups. It is soooo hard! I have to confess that I did "real" pushups on day one of last week and then decided that I would switch to women's pushups on the second day of the challenge. I have new motivation and have decided that this is called a challenge because it is supposed to be just that...challenging and I have decided that I am ready for the full challenge. I feel good this morning. I'm not as sore as I was after doing pushups last week which is a great thing!
I enjoyed a nice walk this morning and I went a little further than I normally do. My goal is to eventually work my way up to walking about 4 miles a day. I also decided today that I am NOT going to run. After I'm in better shape, I may change my mind but for now, brisk walking works for me.
I'm off to start day one of the situp challenge! I'm not sure what it entails just yet but I'm hoping it isn't too hard on my body. lol
I'm really, really hoping to be down 2 pounds by Friday. I guess we'll see what we see!
I'm still feeling a little weak from the stomach flu last week so I am going to rest a little today. I'm thinking that a nap this afternoon sounds perfect!
Here is an update on the exercise front. I completed day one of the pushup challenge yesterday. I decided to start fresh seeing as I didn't complete week one last week. I have also decided that I am not going to take the easy way out. I will be doing full pushups, women's pushups. It is soooo hard! I have to confess that I did "real" pushups on day one of last week and then decided that I would switch to women's pushups on the second day of the challenge. I have new motivation and have decided that this is called a challenge because it is supposed to be just that...challenging and I have decided that I am ready for the full challenge. I feel good this morning. I'm not as sore as I was after doing pushups last week which is a great thing!
I enjoyed a nice walk this morning and I went a little further than I normally do. My goal is to eventually work my way up to walking about 4 miles a day. I also decided today that I am NOT going to run. After I'm in better shape, I may change my mind but for now, brisk walking works for me.
I'm off to start day one of the situp challenge! I'm not sure what it entails just yet but I'm hoping it isn't too hard on my body. lol
I'm really, really hoping to be down 2 pounds by Friday. I guess we'll see what we see!
Monday, June 7, 2010
Battle of the Bulge Days - 4 - 7
WOW! I haven't blogged because my whole family has been fighting the flu bug since about 12:30 am Friday. My almost 4 year old got it first and was throwing up 15 to 30 minutes. I was so tired Friday after being awake all night dealing with Megan. I spent the day doing laundry (I had three loads just from Megan's vomit-fest) and napping. By Friday night I was completely worn out and started feeling ill myself so I went to bed early and started my own puke-fest at about 4:30 in the morning Saturday. By Saturday afternoon, my 10 year old and 18 year old had joined in the fun and my husband, Keith, was doing his best to take care of everyone despite the fact that he was starting to feel sick himself.
I am SOOOOOO glad to be back to normal! My stomach still feels just a little upset but that is likely because I have eaten anything except for a handful of soda crackers over the last 48 hours.
Needless to say, the only exercise I have done has involved running loads of laundry down to the laundry room and running back and forth from the bathroom.
I am back on track today! I have a fridge full of grilled chicken that I made last week that I plan on eating for lunch and dinner tonight. I also have some beautiful organic greens for a salad which I am really looking forward to eating.
I'll also be starting over on the push-up challenge with day 1 today. My body just feels so weak so I'll see how it goes. I am also starting the situp challenge tomorrow and I will be walking 6 days this week.
I am anxiously waiting for a new book to arrive called the Ultimate New York Diet. I'm excited about the program! It sounds very realistic. I heard the creator of the program talk about it while listening to the Dr. Oz radio show and it sounds both promising and doable. We'll see! If anything, it will be another tool for me to use in creating a program tailored specifically for me.
Alright....I have a goal for today besides making healthy food choices and getting in my walking and pushups. I am going to try to add a weight loss tracker to my blog. I'll see if I can figure out how to do that kinda thing. I think it will help with my motivation.
I am SOOOOOO glad to be back to normal! My stomach still feels just a little upset but that is likely because I have eaten anything except for a handful of soda crackers over the last 48 hours.
Needless to say, the only exercise I have done has involved running loads of laundry down to the laundry room and running back and forth from the bathroom.
I am back on track today! I have a fridge full of grilled chicken that I made last week that I plan on eating for lunch and dinner tonight. I also have some beautiful organic greens for a salad which I am really looking forward to eating.
I'll also be starting over on the push-up challenge with day 1 today. My body just feels so weak so I'll see how it goes. I am also starting the situp challenge tomorrow and I will be walking 6 days this week.
I am anxiously waiting for a new book to arrive called the Ultimate New York Diet. I'm excited about the program! It sounds very realistic. I heard the creator of the program talk about it while listening to the Dr. Oz radio show and it sounds both promising and doable. We'll see! If anything, it will be another tool for me to use in creating a program tailored specifically for me.
Alright....I have a goal for today besides making healthy food choices and getting in my walking and pushups. I am going to try to add a weight loss tracker to my blog. I'll see if I can figure out how to do that kinda thing. I think it will help with my motivation.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Battle of the Bulge - Day 3
I'm still feeling pretty motivated today which is a good thing. We are having a big family BBQ tonight which might be a little challenging but I am giving myself permission to eat moderately and enjoy the food I eat.
I am not walking today. I have so much to do to get ready for tonight that I've decided that this will be my 1 day free from walking for the week. I will however do the 100 pushup challenge today and I am NOT looking forward to it! You are suppose to do it every other day. Tuesday I did my trial and made it to 10 pushups. I then did the daily workout which amounted to the following set: 6, 6, 4, 4, 5. I can't even begin to tell you how badly my body hurt yesterday! lol That tells you just how out of shape I am. I am still hurting but will be doing my set of pushups this morning.
That's it for now! I must run and get moving on all of the errands I need to run today. Hopefully I burn some calories!
I am not walking today. I have so much to do to get ready for tonight that I've decided that this will be my 1 day free from walking for the week. I will however do the 100 pushup challenge today and I am NOT looking forward to it! You are suppose to do it every other day. Tuesday I did my trial and made it to 10 pushups. I then did the daily workout which amounted to the following set: 6, 6, 4, 4, 5. I can't even begin to tell you how badly my body hurt yesterday! lol That tells you just how out of shape I am. I am still hurting but will be doing my set of pushups this morning.
That's it for now! I must run and get moving on all of the errands I need to run today. Hopefully I burn some calories!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Battle of the Bulge - Day 2
Yesterday was just okay as far as better eating goes. We had graduation for our 18 year old to go to and at 3:00 pm, we discovered we needed to leave our house an hour earlier than we had originally planned. That threw off our scheduled and at 4:00 pm, when I was still trying to get kids ready and hadn't made a thing for dinner, I ordered pizza. I wasn't horrible....I didn't eat a whole pizza our anything like that but I did eat things that I wasn't really craving and didn't really need just because I was horribly short on time and it was easier to eat pizza than prepare a salad. Here is what I learned yesterday: it would be helpful to have ready made or super easy to throw together food options in my refrigerator. I am grilling up a bunch of chicken later today and chopping it up so that I can use it in wraps and salads. I also need to do a little bit of shopping. I am craving asparagus and salad of all things.
Here is my goals for today. I will grill up my chicken and go through the fridge so that I can make a shopping list. I will have my husband lock the fridge tonight. I know, it sounds crazy but I have a horrible habit of eating in the middle of the night. Not because I am hungry, not because I feel deprived, just because it is a horrible habit that I have established throughout the yars. If I can rid myself of that habit, I know that I will sleep better throughout the night and will wake up feeling more refreshed and without a stomach ache.
On the exercise front, I completed day 1 of the pushup challenge yesterday and am feleing it today! I get a rest from pushups today but will start day 1 of the situp challenge. I got up and went walking this morning too which is awesome because I am so tired right now that I am barely functioning. =)
That's it for today. I'm looking forward to a healthy day with some light eating. I will listen to my body and eat what it needs.
Here is my goals for today. I will grill up my chicken and go through the fridge so that I can make a shopping list. I will have my husband lock the fridge tonight. I know, it sounds crazy but I have a horrible habit of eating in the middle of the night. Not because I am hungry, not because I feel deprived, just because it is a horrible habit that I have established throughout the yars. If I can rid myself of that habit, I know that I will sleep better throughout the night and will wake up feeling more refreshed and without a stomach ache.
On the exercise front, I completed day 1 of the pushup challenge yesterday and am feleing it today! I get a rest from pushups today but will start day 1 of the situp challenge. I got up and went walking this morning too which is awesome because I am so tired right now that I am barely functioning. =)
That's it for today. I'm looking forward to a healthy day with some light eating. I will listen to my body and eat what it needs.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Battle of the Bulge - Day 1
As I was shaving my legs last night, I discovered that I have a rather large dimple on the back of my knee. I came to the harsh realization that I indeed have fat legs which is a huge indicator that something's gotta give! I feel blessed that I have a very proportinate body. I'm not apple shaped or pear shaped. Everything is pretty well in proportion to everything else. My fat legs are a big indicator that there are other very fat areas on my body and I am about to do what I need to do in order to make changes in my life.
I plan on blogging on a daily basis as a way to track how I am doing and what I am feeling. Today is day 1 so there is reason to celebrate!
Here are my goals:
MOVE - I plan on moving more on a daily basis. I have no intentions of becoming a marathon runner or super star athlete. I will simply move more in ways that are enjoyable to me. I got up this morning and went for a brisk walk and I plan on walking later today with a friend. Walking this morning was a great way to start my day!
INCREASE STRENGTH - I am going to complete the 100 pushup challenge and the 200 situp challenge. This won't take more than a few minutes of day of training and it will help me increase my strength and build muscle.
EAT BETTER - I will still eat foods that I enjoy but my goal is to watch portion sizes and strive to make healthy food choices 90% of the time. There are so many healthy foods that I love eating! When faced with the challnge of a craving, I will first eat something good for me. If the craving is still there, then I will allow myself to satisfy the craving using moderation.
I am feeling super pumped and motivated today. These are easy things that I can do for myself that will help me inside and out. Striving to be healthier is a lifelong journey and I believe that I have just stumbled upon a path that will lead me to better health.
I plan on blogging on a daily basis as a way to track how I am doing and what I am feeling. Today is day 1 so there is reason to celebrate!
Here are my goals:
MOVE - I plan on moving more on a daily basis. I have no intentions of becoming a marathon runner or super star athlete. I will simply move more in ways that are enjoyable to me. I got up this morning and went for a brisk walk and I plan on walking later today with a friend. Walking this morning was a great way to start my day!
INCREASE STRENGTH - I am going to complete the 100 pushup challenge and the 200 situp challenge. This won't take more than a few minutes of day of training and it will help me increase my strength and build muscle.
EAT BETTER - I will still eat foods that I enjoy but my goal is to watch portion sizes and strive to make healthy food choices 90% of the time. There are so many healthy foods that I love eating! When faced with the challnge of a craving, I will first eat something good for me. If the craving is still there, then I will allow myself to satisfy the craving using moderation.
I am feeling super pumped and motivated today. These are easy things that I can do for myself that will help me inside and out. Striving to be healthier is a lifelong journey and I believe that I have just stumbled upon a path that will lead me to better health.
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